ALWAYS WHAT IF


Always I must wonder what if

What if she changed her mind
What if I were told when the first question appeared in my eyes

What if it all just didn’t mean shit

What if the void is never fully healed
What if I just grow up and move on
What if everyone stopped listening
What if the truth were told
What if the answer is so what
What if my babies misread my fears
What if my life never changes
What if I never make a difference
What if the meaning of it all is nothing
What if I live all my days in doubt
What if this is as good as it gets
What if I could change it all
What if I wouldn’t
What if the lesson is worth the loss
What if I am better then I might have been
What if I never again
asked what if…